Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Day 230: Editing a Wait

OYLPA Day 230: Editing a Wait, originally uploaded by klodhie.

While I spend many of my days editing - photos, documents, my own learning - I can't scratch out this feeling in the back of my mind and heart of waiting. I keep feeling like I'm waiting for something. I don't know what exactly, and it is honestly a strange feeling because I have been consciously working on not waiting. I keep myself busy with so many things, and so many things that I feel are truly important to me, but all the same that little W-shaped creature, with his sly, slow way, keeps pulling at the back of my mind. It leads to a sort of a heavy sensation, as in a nightmare when no matter how hard you try to run, some force just doesn't let you, and you feel the enormous weight of your legs. It's that sort of a nightmarish feeling.

It's dramatic, I realize that. And I also realize and gasp to think that it's already the latter half of May, so sometimes I wonder why Waiting is even an existent element in my life. But it is, if I'm truly to be honest with myself, and you. How many more random tasks and learning objectives should I assign myself in order to make W leave? Perhaps I will add "Learn Japanese" onto my immediate "To Do" list...

1 comment:

  1. Waiting is very difficult due to all the expectations we have for ourselves. Always remember though- good things come to those who wait!!