Day 66: Another Day

OYLPA Day 66: Another Day, originally uploaded by klodhie.

When I first started this blog about 2 months ago, the point where I thought I would be by this time is drastically different from the reality of the present. I should have been in Pakistan right now, seeing family after 6 years. I should have been trekking out to areas where flood victims now brace for a harsh winter and I should have been volunteering my time and effort to do what I could. I should have been photographing the city of Karachi and its absurdities and in those absurdities its beauty as a city rife with the struggles of any new nation fighting physical and ideological wars. I should have been in a different place and a different frame of mine. Should have been, could have been, would have been...

But I detest the "should've" and "could've" and "would'ves." I abhor them, because they are a vacuum of nothingness. Those words mean nothing, they are of nothing, and nothing can ever, ever be born of them. And so I throw them away and spend each day of my life as any other day, and I look to find some meaning in each day, something that tells me I am there for a reason at this particular moment. So I take a photo of something I do, somewhere that I exist at the moment, even if I think it's nothing important. In doing so, I destroy and obliterate the "should" and "could" and "would."

There is no regret of what "was not," nor is there any particular naive excitement for what "will be." For now there is only another day.

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